Day 3 - First Weigh in

The day had finally arrived.  My first weigh in day.  It is such an odd feeling, you know, that feeling of disappointment even before you jump on the scales.  To say that I was scared would be an understatement.  Would my hard work payoff?  Would my exercise, following the eating plan and drinking so much water that I now wake up with a bladder bigger than a basketball at 4am be worth it?  I'm happy to say that I was actually shocked by the scales.  1.9kgs in two days.  After my fitness test yesterday and my monumental 1km run, I could have easily stayed in bed.  And yes, it did take me an extra 10 mins to get out of bed this morning, but I got up and did my Cardio Burn DVD (I can highly recommend it to kick your butt!).  Granted my legs were screaming at me "what the hell are you doing" but I got through it.  Yes, I went to the easy option a couple of times, but I lasted the 60mins.  I have learnt that, it doesn't matter if you slow down, as long as you keep going. 

Unfortunately I missed the live video tonight as I was working late, so I'm excited to see it and I will definitely be on board next week.  I guess now my only problem is working out how much water is too much water! 

Day 1-2 down

As the song goes, what a difference a day makes.  It is so true.  24 little hours can change so many things.  Some good, some bad.  I'm happy to say that my first 24 hours on the program have been great.  I set my alarm at 5.30am on Monday morning and even though I hadn't gotten to sleep until after midnight (thanks to my snoring husband!) I managed to get out of bed by 6am and was doing Mishes Cardio Kicker DVD.  And I did kick it!  I was so energised for my day.  The food was so tasty, and I thought a head and had taken mineral water to work to mix with fresh lemon and lime juice - water intake up, food intake down, and smiles all round.  Dinner last night was delicious and so easy! 

I woke up again this morning and bam, weight training DVD done by 7am.  Went to work with a smile on my face and a pep in my step.  I will admit, I was very worried about lunch today.  I was meeting with a girlfriend and going to a local cafe.  It is one of those cafes where as soon as you walk in the door the aroma of the food hits you and everything looks devin.  Not greasy or fatty, but you know that Focaccia will be full of no-no fats and nastys.  I stopped at the sandwich bar and had a tuna and salad sandwich.  Butter, no thanks - I'll have avocado, and throw some tomato, beetroot, & lettuce as well.  With my mineral water, it was a superb lunch.  This afternoon when I was feeling peckish, I grabbed an apple without a second thought.  I completed the fitness test tonight and for the first time in my 34 years I ran 1km without stopping.  I know it isn't much, but it was one of my goals.  I did it, and I feel fantastic.  Dinner again was amazing, and I'm so lucky to have my husband eating the evening meals with me and enjoying them.  So, I'm in the middle of making lunch for tomorrow and my hubby pulls out the Peanut Butter M&M's.  These things are beyond yummy and I could very easily sit there and eat a whole packet, and then some.  But I said No.  I have grabbed out a Weight Watchers Rich Toffee Bar and it has 90 calories in it.  I will work out my intake for the day, and if I can cover it, I will have it.  If not, a hot chocolate will be just fine.  I don't know if anyone else is feeling this, but you know that bloated feeling you get after you eat, because you have either eaten too much, or eaten so much processed crap - I haven't had that for 2 days and it feels AMAZING. 

After doing the 12WBT last year, to be honest I only did it half arsed.  This round I'm doing everything differently.  Food diary, writing down how much water I have, actually doing the fitness test and writing this blog.  It is only day two and I already feel as though my mind set has shifted.  I know there are going to be hurdles, but I finally feel as though I can deal with them, and not turn into a blubbering mess! 

I can't begin to thank Misch for this program.  I can feel the new me winning many more battles.

Am I ready for this?

The day has finally arrived.  Tomorrow is the first day of a new beginning.  I have been reading my fellow 12WBT posts talking about "the final meal" and binging before kick-off.  I have had a whole weekend of eating what I want.  Even at lunch today, I sat with my husbands family and had a seafood platter and wait for it, a massive slice of Chocolate cake.  The stupid thing is, I NEVER eat cake.  I don't have a real sweet tooth.  But I sat there and ate half of this massive slice, before I almost had a heart attack from the sugar intake.  I even said "this is my last supper!"  I know the meals on the challenge are delicious and tasty so why do we have this need to feel as though we are being deprived because we are not having that bowl of chips or plate of Nachos?  It all goes back to mindset.  This is not a diet.  This is a life change.  I am praying with everything that my alarm will go off tomorrow at 5.30am and I will be in my lounge room doing my Cardio DVD.  Should be very interesting but I am determined to win this time.

Didn't like what I saw at all

So, have finally taken my measurements and taken the dreaded photo.  It is amazing what a difference actually seeing yourself stripped down does to a person.  I am so ready to start the 12WBT and can't wait for my journey to commence.

I JFDI!!

I actually managed to take Mishs advice this morning and I won the mind game battle.  The alarm went off at 6am and I staying in bed for about 20 mins.  I got up, thought "I can't be bothered doing any exercise cause I didn't get enough sleep" and I had breakfast.  By 6.50am I was sitting in front of the TV and thought, I can either keep sitting here for another 1/2 hour or I can put my shoes on, grab my dogs and go for a walk.  And I did it.  I just put my shoes on and got out the door.  And what a beautiful morning it was.  I'm at work having a coffee now and guess what?  I'm only having one sugar instead of two.  Who knows, but the end of the 12 weeks, I might even get that down to no sugars!

My Commitment to THE WORLD

My Commitment to myself and my 12WBT Family is to stay focused and stick to the program.  To exercise 6 out of 7 days and to not make excuses.  To lose 7 kgs by the end of the 12WBT.  To not drink alcohol during the week and limit myself to 1-2 glasses on the weekend.  To not let others sabotage me on my journey.  To support my 12WBT family were I can.  To encourage my husband to join me on the meal plan.  I further commit that if I have a bad day, not to crucify myself but to read over my goals and this commitment.  To exercise every Tuesday with Maz, rain, hail or shine!  I also commit to staying on the program once the 12 weeks are over, and make this a life change.  And I am committed to do the work to get there.  I WILL be my word.

I just feel so lost

I started a couple of weeks ago doing the pre-season tasks and I was so motivated.  I even started a blog!  But again, the excuses have taken over.  I haven’t done the last two pre-season tasks and I haven’t done any exercise in nearly 2 weeks and although I have tried to cut out alcohol during the week, I had a function last night and sure enough, I had 2 glasses of wine.  I have done this program before and loved it, so why the hell do I just step over my workout clothes in the morning?  I even sit in bed at night reading Mish’s book - losing the last 5 kgs and agree with everything she says.  This is exactly what happened last round.  I started in blaze of glory and then after 2 months it all fell apart.  I don’t know why I seem to have a mental barrier stopping me from achieving my goals.  I just feel CRAP!

My first alcohol free day

After completing my pre-season tasks last night, I was determined to make a change.  My alarm went off at 5.30am this morning and even though I laid in bed until 6.30am I won the battle with that little voice inside my head telling me to stay in bed.  I got out of bed, put on my runners and went for a walk.  Now this wasn't easy, seeing I had injured myself on the weekend (dam jet ski!), but although I had to hobble I did it.  I reached one of my first goals today.  I didn't push myself.  I knew I was sore and I took it easy.  But the main thing is I did some sort of exercise today.  I got home from my 30min walk, which would usually take me 20 mins, made a big bowl of fruit with yoghurt for breakfast and went off to work feeling alive!  I have just come home from my girlfriends house.  She is a healthy eater so we had lamb and salad for dinner, it was simple and delicious.  Normally she wouldn't even have to ask if I wanted a wine as I would always call her crazy for even asking.  But tonight when she asked, I said, no thanks, don't really feel like it.  Granted I had a diet soft drink, not the best thing but a hell of an improvement to wine.  So I have successfully survived my first alcohol free day since I can remember.  And although I had a stressful day, I'm not pulling my hair out or pasing up and down the hallway.  I know I have a long way to go, but the first step is always the hardest.

Task 3 - Goal Setting

Be realistic with your goals.  Easy said than done Mish.  I am one of those classic people that set goals which are totally unreachable.  Instead of saying I wan to be able to run 10kms at the end of the 12WBT (and I can't even run to the end of the street), I would say, I want to run a half marathon at the end of the 12WBT!  I would then train flat out for the first couple of weeks, burn myself out and then sit in front of the TV with a burger and chips and make all the excuses under the sun.  Not this time.  I have sat down and really thought about where I want to go and what I want to achieve throughout the 12WBT and beyond.  I have never even thought about doing a marathon, or half marathon, although I have entered two fun runs and actually not turned up!  But why can't I do a marathon in 12 months?  What is stopping me from making that commitment.  If I remove all the excuses, there is nothing.  So I'm putting it out there people, I want to run a marathon in 12 months!  So here are the rest of my goals.  Right now, I'm hoping that they will all happen, but no doubt they will also change throughout the 12WBT and beyond.  But you have to start somewhere.

1 Month Goals

Lose 3kgs, run 3km without stopping. Stick to the eating and exercise plan EVERY DAY!!!

How I Will Get There

Start the running program. Follow the 12WBT meal and exercise program EVERY DAY!!!

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3 Month Goals

Lose 7 kgs. Run 10kms without stopping. Throw away my "fat" clothes for good. Be confident about myself and my body. Don't be afraid to put myself first in relation to exercise. Make that my number one priority. Don't have a drink during the week during the 12WBT.

How I Will Get There

Follow the program. Don't buy alcohol to have in the house. Be strong enough not to have a drink during the week. If someone invites me somewhere, say I can come later or not at all.

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6 Month Goals

Run a half marathon.  Maintain my weight

How I Will Get There
Follow training program.

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12 Month Goals

Run a marathon. Be maintaining my weight and health. Start trying for a family. Buy a jet ski.

How I Will Get There

Training every day and following plan. Don't spend money on crap!

Task two - Getting Real, No more Excuses.

This was definately the hardest task of all.  It is so easy to come up with excuses but it is a different game hen you have to actually look at your self and why you are making the excuses.  Last round I wasn't 100% honest when I completed the pre-season tasks , but this round is all about doing things differently.  So here are my excuses and my Solutions:

Internal Excuses

I'm too tired. I'm too busy. It isn't going to make a difference if I don't excercise today. It is too cold/raining. It is too hot. I have worked hard this week, so I can have a rest. I have no motivation. I'm not worth it - I'm always going to be this weight. I have been unhappy about my weight for so long, what will I do when I reach my goal? I'm never going to look as good as other "skinny" girls.

Solutions

Just get out the door and do it. It isn't going to make a difference to anyone else but me. Don't sit infront of the TV for 30 mins - go for a walk, go for a ride, do SOMETHING! There are skinny girls who were much bigger than me and they just didi it.

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External Excuses Within My Control

It's raining, it's hot, I'm too tired, I have no time.

Solutions

GET OUT OF BED WHEN THE ALARM GOES OFF. Remeber how good it feels to exercise.

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External Excuses Outside My Control

Attending functions

Solutions

If I can't exercise because I am out to dinner - make sensible decsions about what to eat. Don't blow it because of where you are. Then, exercise the next day.

It certainly was an eye opener to realise that I am my biggest excuse - now I just have to do something about it.

It starts with one step

Well here goes.  My first blog ever!  I have to admit I am a little bit excited but scared all at the same time.  I am hoping that by sharing my thoughts, fears and accomplishments throughout this journey it will help me andy maybe someone else along the way.  I don't really know what to expect but I guess I will just type and see what happens.